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miss. hope

may Allah helps you and make your life happy

Ameen



i want to say someyhing but i don't know much about you

? you finished college , right

why don't you find a job

I have a job.. It will start in September though not now, but in about two months. I was going to cancel it, but my therapist didn't agree and I thought well he probably not even probably but does know better... So I kept the job, even though I'm seriously worried how I will do in job in the state I'm in... Still keeping it though

if you have money you can think of something to do

maybe living alone

I have thought about that, and really want to do that.. your forgetting though that I'm a girl.. Unmarried girls in our society don't live alone.. Divorced yes there are.. Unmarried and young too ALONE!!?? I don't care about how rare it is, because you need to do what you think will make things better


The issue is what if my father gets angry, and reports to the police that I ran away.. I have no say in such a situation.. I doubt they would even return me back with my dad... From I have seen is they put girls in the psychiatric hospital... Then what do I do!!!?

I need to search about it.. I wonder if there is a certain age in the law where I can be allowed to live alone.. or anything in the law.. Doubt there is though..

I want to convince my father myself without resorting to the law.. I want him to think himself that me living alone is for the better of all of us, because I don't see how it's possible to live together in the same house... Were going to kill each other!! Maybe if he want make changes, but he doesn't want change, and he thinks he is the perfect father.. He is also very selfish.. He only thinks about himself and want would make him peaceful... Anyone else heh NOOOO... He thinks he has the right to act and treat people however which way he want, BUT everyone else must treat him like a king regardless of his words and actions

You can't show that your upset, irritated, angry,... etc You must think like him and agree with all his opinions OR ELSE.... ETC ETC ETC

WHO DOES HE THINK HE IS!!!?? THE MASTER AND RULER OF MANKIND


i don't want to say this , but i have a similar problem

i hate my father , and i'm waiting to graduate so that i can leave the house for good

You are a male so you can do that. Hopefully you will have some peace of mind soon and can focus more on in what you want in life

and my psychological problems are because of him


I don't understand seriously how a parent can act like this in such a way, and coldly hurt their own son/daughter... I can never imagine myself doing that if I ever had a child of my own... It's mind puzzling, and I don't think I will ever understand HOW!! It's true sometimes peoples past makes cold harsh people, but I would think you wouldn't want your child to suffer like you... U know what it's not worth thinking about I'll shut up .. I'm a person will a big heart who can't understand how you can become so heartless...

Regardless of all the hurt he has and is causing, I still care, love, and worry about him.. I may say the word hate, but I don't know how to hate my heart easily becomes tender again and I give people excuses and chances ALL the time no matter what kind of treatment I got

I just prefer to think we are humans and we make mistakes.. I think nobody becomes the way they are out of the blue, there's a reason for how/why they became the way they are... We aren't born cruel and heartless... You never know how other peoples INNER worlds are like.., sometimes u can and sometimes u can't

Even if you did know their inner world if they don't want to change there's nothing you can do... It's harder if they're blind and really believe there's nothing wrong with them

We are a product of our experiences and how we wish to think.. How we deal with things too.. well which relates to thinking.. I think I repeated myself.. no I didn't repeat myself.. yeah I didn't... Whatever the point is clear and that's what counts


ME I am focusing on trying to rest, relax, and take of my health because finally I caught a good doctors attention and my situation as they say is critical.. so I have a lot of urgent test and she has been talking to departments to make space for me as an urgent case in order to get all the exams done as fast as possible... and what she is think is the issue is related to a hormon I know about from a past presentation I did in univ., but didn't it cross my mind.. It made perfect sense ad light bulb clicked in my mind... HIGH level of cortisol are dangerous in long terms will make your body it's own enemy lots of things... It leads in long terms to cushing's syndrom which has stages and the forth stage if you don't get quick and fast treatment you die.. I can't believe it

The things HIGH long term cortisol do leading to cushing's syndrom are not something that has put my mind at peace.. knowing that I just found out and had signs a long time ago because they a lot of symptoms and only a few of the all don't match and it is making perfect but scary sense.. and the doctor is scaring me more repeating the words critical and urgent and the look in her eyes... like what I'll die...

Even my sever moods depression issues thinking I was losing my mind wondering why all the knowledge I know to cope is getting me no where... it explains it all every over the top mental symptom and all the physical

The bad thing is it caused my long term constant mental stress... stopping stress heh.. I can only laugh, but it's not funny at all... By far it's not an easy nor moderate mission.. It's very challenging because of the way my life has become worsening...

I never thought a stress even it was long term,.. I never it can do so much bad leading to an actual critical physical situation

I don't want to believe it... thinking perhaps the doctors just paranoid... It can't be..