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it's nice to see you miss. hope


i think you should go to the therapist with your parents

because she (He) will know how your parents treat you even if they

. didn't say or do anything

I know which is mainly the only reason why I might go with a 75% chance, even though I had already decided that I wasn't going to no matter what.. I wasn't going to go with them nor even for me anymore.. I feel I'm over, and had enough.. what's the use... I don't see hope... I'm trying to, but I'm feeling/seeing it near or far..


what did the doctor l you when you went to the hospital



is there any improvement

Well,..... We don't know the whole picture because we don't have all the test results back yet! We know I have an issue with my liver, stomach, and uterus... In regards to my liver theres nothing to do about it hopefully it just doesn't cause issues when I get older... She doesn't think it is the cause of any of my current issues/symptoms as long as I don't start feeling pain towards where the liver is located... The stomach she didn't say what will be done about it because she wants to see the biopsy they took from the inside my stomach to see what the lab says.., but there's still is an issue with the walls/lining of my stomach.. Also with blood vessels on the lining of my stomach can start bleeding too cause there's an issues with them... If the biopsy shows I have H. pylori bacteria than even worse...

You see I have what is called Gastritis since I was 14 yrs old or younger it occurs when the lining of the stomach becomes inflamed or irrited. NOW I also have Erythematous gastritis occurs when there is redness of the skin because of dilation of blood vessels. In some cases, it is a normal response due to inflammation and can heal with treatment. In addition, It was found I have exudative gastritis: discharge of certain elements of the blood into the tissues due to rashes and swelling of the lining of the stomach... If the biopsy sent to the lab is positive meaning I have an infection called Helicobacter pylori (H. pylori) than it's worse.. Why!!? Because H. pylori is the bacteria responsible for most ulcers and stomach inflammation (chronic gastritis). It can weaken the protective coating of the stomach, allowing digestive juices to irritate the sensitive stomach lining... I had this bacteria before when I was 14 yrs with regular gastritis and the bacteria was treated, but the gastritis is a long term thing so it stayed... Every since around age 14 I used to take the same medications every morning to manage the gastritis and I would be ok... Now no medicine is working...

I need local surgery for something else... Also a laparoscopic surgery for my uterus. I had something before that was surgically removed, but seems to have came back... I'm angry.. Which means I need to get admitted and go under full anesthesia again for something reoccurring that I removed 6 yrs ago... I need to get an appointment for an MRI though first because an ultrasound wasn't enough... They know it's back, but the question is where.. If they can't see through the MRI than I will just need to do the surgery and they will just need to search for it then at the time.. First time they removed it didn't show by eye on test until the surgery itself.., but it most likely there.. More than one doctor (3 exactly) said I need to do the surgery.. What is being done is trying to see where it is before scheduling a surgery....
Also I need the other surgery which would just be local without staying in the hospital.. I rather not say what the local surgery is for.. I don't want to do it, and I asked a thousand times if it is really absoluy necessary and the answer was yes... :(

That's all I know... I got a lot of blood test results yesterday, but didn't show them to the doctor yet.. , but from looking at the normal rang near the results I see some highs and lows.. My hemoglobin is high.. I don't if she will say it's ok because it's not very high.. I'm low in sugar... blah blah blah... I don't want to think about it... I'll just see what she says

I didn't even go to the hospital yesterday, I ended up feeling too tired... I need to force myself to go today though... I wont see the doctor until the biopsy is done and that will take time.. I did it on Thursday, and they said it will take a week to two weeks for the biopsy lab result..

So my liver, more than one thing with my stomach as I explained, uterus = surgery, and local surgery for something else.. The blood tests aren't ok, but I'll let the doctor to make the assessment of how good or bad is it between my high and low results for a few things here and there... I am not a doctor so I can only look at the normal range and compare...

Tomorrow is the day my parents will go to my therapist... Maybe me too.., MAYBE!!.. That's all I'm thinking about today it's going to make me sick worrying about it... Calculating the hours.. I keep on asking them are you going still!! Are you sure u want to go!? Hoping will change there mind.. How in the WORLD did I agree for this meeting tomorrow.. The right is for me to be there too... Hopefully we all remain calm.. We can kill each other heh metaphorically speaking.. Seriously... My father can easily get out of control... My dad and me are like gas and fire... I can imagine it easily turning into a zoo or a place for a butcher... I'm trying to joke about it, but it's not funny...

HOPEFULLY, we all remain calm civilized mature adults tomorrow.. We get in huge fights lay...

I don't think any good will come out of it , but I'm giving it a chance... I would have never done this years ago no matter what the circumstances were.. Still don't know HOW I agreed... Shocked myself later thinking wait!? what did I get myself in to no : S ... Too late to cancel... My father is a very difficult complex extremely negative doubtful deceiving person and the list can go on... I can't and refuse to even try to remain calm dealing with him.. He makes soooo angry... I don't care if I get kicked out, I barely care about that.. I have zero respect for him... I feel it's just a situation awaiting to happen especially if I am in the picture.... even if I was calm..

Ignore all this extra non sense talk... Feel like I'm going to war instead of to make things better

We'll see what happens